Back To Reality

If there was one word that could describe the last four months of my life, it would be that it was a blur. With work, a wedding, and the holidays it is very easy to get lost in the madness. But as I sit in one of my favorite coffee shops, I can finally sit back and breathe. I thank God for his faithfulness, but I'm more grateful for His commitment to me. Over these last few months one of the last things I've thought about is reading or studying His word. But as I settle into my marriage with Crystal, I feel that tug from my Lord. I believe my pastor said it best, "So many times, we want life situations or other people to teach us the Lord. When we have a direct line to His voice, we should take advantage of it." I know that in order for my marriage to Crystal to go forward, I must be tuned into God's voice. Without Him I am nothing. Reality is tough, but it keeps us intuned to God. It keeps our feet on the ground and strengthens our faith in something bigger than us. I encourage whoever reads this blog to consistently take that time with the Lord everyday. Don't just pray and abandon your coversation with Him. Take time and listen to what He has to say. He voice alone steers us through the crazy times.

My Girl

For those that read these blogs, you know often that I write alot about my two loves. God and Crystal. Still sitting here listening to the rain, and I miss her. I miss her really bad. So mny time I feel like I'm not doing enough to be a great man for her. The times that I know I've hurt her suck really bad. But I know shes my girl. My one and only. She is the best for me. My girl is the best. If I could use one word to describe her I would use the word strong. Crystal has this unwavering power about her that I am blessed to take in. She does not back down from circumstance. She doesn't fear for what trouble may lie ahead. Sure she may have her concerns, but she doesn't worry. Her beauty is even strong. It stands out among any other girl. I am blessed to have her in my life. I will always be thankful for that night I met her. I'll give my life giving back to what she means to me.

She Deserves The Best

Feels like I haven't sat down and blogged in forever. Some much is going on in my life right now as I sit down and listen to the thunder storm outside. In 4 months, I will be marrying the girl of my dreams. In 4 months, my life will change completely. 4 months is coming very fast I should say. Its a surreal to think about the responsibilty I am taking on. Still unanswered questions, but I know that Lord will provide the answers for me. I know this, because the Lord knows that I want to give Crystal the very best she deserves. I want to be the best man for her...period. I want her to have no doubts about me loving her for the rest of our lives. I want her to be at ease in her faith. So Lord, I pray that you continue to give me the ability to complete each assignment you give me. I pray that I will become a better man to give her everything that she needs.

The Blood Is Our Rock

It's been a long time since I have done one of these, but I am getting back into the swing of writing devotions again. I fully believe that God has opened this door of ministry to me and does not want it closed anytime soon. I sit here in bed thinking about the power in the blood of Jesus Christ.Its on today that we revisit the sacrifice Jesus paid on Calvary for our sins. He bore a criminals death and died in shame. But in doing so, he destroyed the yoke of sin upon our lives. Its through His blood that we have our relationship with the Father. I came across a scripture in the book of Psalm this week that really encouraged me in my faith. In Psalm 73:26, David writes, My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. In the Hebrew translation, the word strength is translated to the word rock. I fully believe that the blood Christ shed on this day many years ago, sets us apart from any other so called support. When doubt creeps into my life, I lean upon the rock of my salvations. I call on His name and proclaim his blood over my life when sickness tries to hit my body. Its through him that we are purified. His sacrifice for our wretched sin filled lives, makes us right before the eyes of God. Take time to remember why you are here and thank God for sending His one, only son to save us.

11-12-11

"You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love you. And your beautiful. Just marry me."

On November the 12th of 2011, I will get to marry the love of my life Crystal Norris. To even imagine life without her is irrelevant. But to imagine life with her is a sea of endless dreams waiting to come true. the night I asked, I knew it was meant to be. She has just be given a gift from God that no doctor could ever give her. He gave her the ability to hear in a ear that was considered useless. As she sat there in my arms, crying, I whispered the words I Love You in a once deaf ear, I heard those words come back to me from her sweet voice. What I said next changed our lives forever. Without any hesitation or doubt, I whispered "Will you Marry Me?" Within a second of time, her head signified yes. Its still hard to believe that in 10 months, I will be married to the love of my life. But instead of trying to figure it out, I will watch her walk down the aisle in white and I'll give her the love she deserves everyday of our lives.

My Love

It is so hard being away from her right now. To know that my love is sleeping without me makes my heart hurt at times. But yet, she is still my love for life. As I sit here in my college dorm and hold onto the blanket we call Brownie, I can't help but think about how amazing she is to my life. To think that we went from friends, to boyfriend and girlfriend, and now we are working towards soulmates. Its moments like these that make me cherish my gift from God even more. My heart longs for her, but a steady voice on the inside tells me that "The Wait Will Be Worth It." I know what I am promised. I am promised happieness that this world cannot even understand and she is just a piece of it. My first love is Christ alone. He gave a sacrifice that I could never repay. He took upon my sin and made me righteous in the eyes of my God. Now He has given me her. Crystal is my love for this world. There is no woman or anything in this world that will deserve the love I give her. My love maybe away right now, but a day is coming where I won't have to worry about leaving her again. A day is coming where I can cherish and love her every night. That day is rapidly approaching and I look forward to laying next to my love.

2011....Lets Get It

Whewww! 2011 is finally here and it comes with great expectation for myself. Through times of prayer I know that the Lord has big things in store for my life. I know that I will be taking steps toward obtaining my ministerial credentials. But having credentials is nothing if I don't have the call of God on my life. I want to strive harder to be stronger in my walk with the Lord and impact lives around me. I want to be more responsible in the decisions that I make. I want to take control over my life and change it physically. All these wants need to be backed up with the desire and strive to do it. My family deserves a better Trenton than the one they saw in 2010. My parents need to see a grateful son and my brother needs to see an good example in his older brother. Finally, my heart across the bay deserves the very best from me this year. Crystal and I know what we are working towards. We are working towards forever together. But we must keep our eyes on Christ. We cannot let the enemy bog us down and lose focus on what matters the most. We have youth that look up to us as respectable people and they need to see what a real relationship looks like. Father, my prayer is that you make our lives an impact towards others. Keep our eyes on you and you alone. Let my life change dramactically this year and be used for your kingdom sake.